LOL i havent posted for a long time. and now that i am doing so, it’s only to say goodbye.
i enjoyed blogging her since its quite neat. but i think keeping too many blogs can really be a pain in the ass.
lol xD im making my life pretty complicated eeh? anyway i’ll be going back to my main blog from now on so- this might really be my last post…
like before i don’t really “delete” my blogs…
i just let them there- lol it has been my habit.
okay~ so long folks!
`626
i am still in the state of being mesmerized by Kuroshitsuji.
LOL in fact nagbabasa ako ng manga… nakaka 2 volumes na ako.
7 chapters, in other words.
anyway… habang nagbabasa ako nung manga online, ang galing kasi super kamuka nila yung nasa anime.
i just love how they exactly look the same (both in manga and anime!)
and yes, Madame Red is certainly a beauty~
i love those red lips on her with her red hair and red clothes. hahaha!
anyway i also love just how ironic Kuroshitsuji is.
spoiler alert!! XD
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well, Sebastian is a butler. and in fact a demon.
we all know that demons are.. well bad creatures.
they do bad things. they’re mean, they’re liars, they’re cheaters, and some more negative adjectives.
but well- in this anime; bound by their contract, Sebastian, a demon and a butler at the same time fulfills his master’s wishes. all of them.
he never lies and follows his master wherever whenever.
but in the end, yes, he would still have his soul. that is the payment for his service. well kasi diba, kahit may contract pa yun tingin ko hindi susunod ang mga demon dun eh. parang lolokohin ka lang nila.
they will eat your soul kahit na di nila tuparin yung contract.
also, in this anime… you’ll have the feeling that:
i want the demon win over that angel.
i want the demon safe. i want the demon prevail.
and yet we all know that in the real world… we will never want that.
Sebastian… a demon and a butler at the same time. he never lied to Ciel… all through out the anime (first season)
well i am still thinking if ever he did… even once.
but i don’t think so.
Sebastian is just… the “goodest” LOL best demon i have ever seen.
even though he’s just doing all those things for the contract’s sake.
-and of course.. Ciel’s soul.
so there. i love how ironic this anime is.
there’s a lot actually- i think. 
the Shinigami/Death gods here are even adorable XD
well i am not saying they’re cuter than Ryuk and Rem but…
well they have human forms in this anime so i think it’s a different thing. but well we have Grelle and Undertaker.
they’re such adorable death gods. Undertaker loves bone-shaped biscuits by the way- isn’t that just cute?! XD he even offered Ciel some on the day he Ciel was so hungry and lost (without Sebastian beside him)
although it strays away with the original idea we have of demons, i still think it’s amazing.
Sebastian’s eyes remind me of Vampires’ eyes (especially the smexy vampires from Vampire Knight)
only purple and more enchanting.
hahaha! that’s when he unleashes his “semi-real” to “real” power/strength.
i just love that look… but he, also, have red eyes…
anyway at this point i still have a lot of thoughts about Kuroshitsuji.
it’s just that… i don’t think i can type them all here.
ang weird ng feeling eh. hahaha! new love new love.
thanks to this anime/manga i am recovering faster.
haha! now that made me sound like i have an illness or something. nah~
LOL it keeps me busy and distracted.
i should really stray away from those sad thoughts already that i had during the end of the first term. REALLY.
BTW!!! I RECEIVED A TEXT MESSAGE FROM MOMY NAT LAST NIGHT!
SOU IS LEAVING LOLITA23Q????? NOOOOOO~
this is the worst news i had this week. U_U
*626
i wanna devote this entry to a new love, the anime series: Kuroshitsuji
i just love the way the story went. took me a total of three days to finish all 24 episodes.
and i don’t feel any regret about doing so.
it’s a very amazing story. an ironic one.
if you don’t want spoilers please leave now
cause i’ll be talking a lot about this anime that i’ll have to state things that happened. (and those are, i believe, considered to be spoilers)
what encouraged me to watch this anime?
simple. it’s Grelle’s pretty smirk.
i saw a fanart of the hot bishounen characters at DA.
and the moment i saw that lovely smirk on that weird-looking guy, i decided: i will watch this.
enchanted by the black butler, no he’s not Grelle.
the name’s Sebastian; i was hooked. and i was really awed.
it made me wanna wish for a butler like him XD
anyway the story’s sad. since the ending was not really clear.
all i know is that, Pluto died. The evil angel died, killed by the demon.
the protagonist as well- died.
and probably… the servants did as well.
let’s talk about the characters first
Ciel Phantomhive, he’s the protagonist in this anime. an Earl at the age 12 and a brat. his mom and dad died due to a fire that burnt their mansion a few years ago. i really love the color blue on him, suits him very very well. he seemed merciless, hateful and evil. but i believe that Ciel is a kind boy. a gentle kid sleeps somewhere inside him. (this seemed kind’a dramatic but it’s true)
Sebastian Michaelis, he’s the black butler- and a demon. he’s awesome! he can do almost everything under his master’s orders. he’s loyal, handsome, sexy, smart, he’s amazing! bound by the contract, he’s off to serve Ciel until the day his mission ends- and then he can get to have his soul in exchange.
Tanaka-san, the old chibi grandpa of the Phantomhive mansion. He’s a very cute character!! he’s been with the family the longest!
Maerin/Maylene, the maid of the household. she seemed clumsy most of the time but under those thick pair of eyeglasses, a sharp-shooting girl lies.
Finian, usually called Finny. the gardener. his strength is unbelievable. why? a group of doctors seemed to have injected him a kind of a drug or something to make him stronger than any human. finny is a very kind boy. he’s cheerful and has a soft kind heart.
Brad, the chef. he used to be a soldier and the only one to survive a certain war they encountered. he’s not really a good chef, though. but he’s strong and has a strong sense of responsibility.
Elizabeth, Ciel’s fiancee. she’s a charming adorable girl. she has a kind heart and a gentle smile. but she can be bossy at times especially when she “makes everything cute”.
Unto my beloved Shinigamis!
Grelle Sutcliff, the red-haired-razor-teeth death god. he’s really fun and adorable!! he’s kind’a gayish and has a thing for Sebastian XD during the first few episodes, he showed a clumsy-good-for-nothing butler: Grelle but as the Jack the Ripper case opens, a new face for him appears
Undertaker, this is a spoiler! yes. he’s also a Shinigami. believed to be the one who sentenced Marie Antoinette to hell and took care of Robin Hood’s case. LOL he runs a shop somewhere out there and will give service if and almost only if you can give him the best jokes to make him laugh. he’s actually hot way back. well i still find him hot now 
William Spears, another Shinigami. He did not appear that much but he’s the one who confiscated Grelle’s “custom made death scythe”
Madame Red /Angelina
Ciel’s aunt. a lady who loves the color red. she was also involved in the Jack the Ripper case. i love her character. she’s been pained so much and yet she still loves the people who caused her pain. (spoiler: her sister, Ciel’s mom)
Lau
the Chinese weird guy. he’s actually funny. i can’t say much about him. but he “betrayed” Ciel on the later part of the series and so he ended up fighting against Sebastian which lead to…
Lanmao
Lau’s.. hmm sister? i am not really sure but she’s the cat-looking-girl who’s almost always beside Lau. she’s strong fast and sexy. woooh!
Prince Soma
the prince from India. he’s actually a good but selfish prince. but he then realizes his mistakes after the things that happened to him and his butler, Agni.
Agni, Prince Soma’s butler. he used to be an evil person who was about to be sentenced to death. he never believed in gods until he met Prince Soma and that meeting changed his life and his beliefs. he became a very very kind person afterwards… the first person who called Sebastian, a “friend”.
Ash/Angela, he’s the main antagonist. i can’t say much about him. he’s annoying! spoiler: i am 99% sure that he’s also Angela. Pluto’s owner. LOL he can shift from being a man to a woman. he’s the evil angel.
ps: he has the weirdest laugh in this anime!! XD beats Grelle’s.
Pluto, the devil dog. i mean the lord devil dog. he’s really hot in his human form… he’s almost always naked XD but then Sebastian gave him clothes. now i know why he was so happy when Ash visited the Phantomhive’s mansion. it’s because he sensed the presence of his old master, Angela! Woof Woof! he’s really attached to Sebastian though.
So far, these are the characters that i can remember.
i wanna say a lot about this anime but i have other things to do…
so what i did was to introduce the characters and give a couple of spoilers here and there.
i am in love with this anime right now.
it makes my heart skip a beat XDDD i can’t believe i’ve already finished it, to be honest. i want more!!
REALLY… i love Kuroshitsuji. i’ll be posting screencaps i took while watching the series when i get the time~ aaahhh~
the lovely faces of these characters. although i wasnt able to see Sebastian’s real form. anyway… as i have said this is a very ironic story.
why?
this is where i actually wanted the demon to win over the angel.
it’s really ironic right? and i believe that in the end Sebastian did eat Ciel.
LOL that was a hot scene though… :’)
makes me wanna read a doujin or something XD
but anyway this is really worth watching!
i will now read the manga when i find some time…
for the last time before i end this entry: I LOVE KUROSHITSUJI!
the death gods here are AWESOME!! really.
“Akuma de Shitsuji desu kara…” – Sebastian
*626
hello. i just checked my grades for this term.
and man i suck!! well, all my grades were either 2.0 or 2.5
the only subjects wherein i got a 4.0 are japala3 and humalit.
my favorite subjects XD well, i think i must study more next term.
now that there will be 4 major subjects. x_x
orz i should not fail!
anyway i woke up late today. 9:00 am.
i had this very weird nostalgic dream.
and yes, this entry is about a dream again.
so in my dream i saw my high school friends/best friends.
special mention: rosalyn and kayoe
it was nostalgic since in my dream, we were planning for our fieldtrip the next day.
there was also this part wherein i saw myself seated in a class of more than 20 students. (more than 30 probably!!)
LOL wearing our school uniform, so it’s definitely my school (kindergarten-highschool)
it felt sooo nostalgic! i wanted to experience those years once again.
anyway kayoe, len and i were talking about the stuff that we’ll bring
like food, shampoo [?!] LOL i don’t know what the shampoo is for XD
and then there was this most weird part.
a part where i saw myself talking with one of my closest best friends.
i can’t remember the face nor the voice that much but it’s either aljine or cammille.
we were seated by the stairs and guess what? i saw a certain teacher in that part too, a few meters away from us.
someone that i know shouldn’t BE there. and yet he was. LOLOLOL
and the moment i went down the stairs the two of them went down as well. it was really weird!!!
when i was about to leave the school he said something in a joking manner, something like: “papakain ka ba sa inyo kasi naka **** ka sa ****?!” and then he laughed.
i laughed as well and answered i don’t know.
it seemed like we were friends. oh how i wish that’s true!!
hahaha anyway so that’s basically what my dream was.
i miss those days when i have to do a mini shopping for snacks and other stuff, preparing for the next day’s trip with classmates and teachers.
having to wake up at around 4:00 in the morning, eating breakfast and going to school to wait for the bus.
the bus that was supposed to leave at 6:00 am but leaves the school one hour after. LOL
the funny guides inside the bus who keeps their balance while the bus is moving, talking and trying to keep the students AWAKE.
LOL those moments are sure making me feel sad and happy at the same time.
when i feel so nostalgic about something there were times when i feel like i wanna cry. maybe because the pain/happiness/emotions involved in that certain memory comes back to me as well.
it feels like, i opened a door into some other dimension way back in my past and became a part of it once again.
but that dimension is very very far from reality.
i don’t know which one hurts more. the reality or that so-called dimension.
for me, i live in different worlds.
maybe that’s one of the many reasons i have this multiple personality thing. LOL not just double! XD
yes, i am weird. but not the weird way as some normal people would think.
if you’ll ask me why do i choose to live in different worlds, i may not be able to answer that as of now.
BY THE WAY!! i attended my favorite niece’s 7th birthday yesterday.
it was a very simple one with a lot of kids from their neighborhood.
well, their place is not the typical subdivision-ish place.
nor a squatter-ish one. it’s just that, it doesn’t look too good for people who have middle-class to high-class living.
well for me, it’s fine since the people there are somehow just like anybody else.
why judge them right? i don’t even know them personally.
i just enjoyed what i saw yesterday.
had a few laughs here and there.
although i felt annoyed at some times too.
i don’t wanna judge people who lives there, but it’s just that they showed an attitude i didn’t quite like.
an attitude which makes me hate how Filipinos live their lives.
WELL i am a Filipino. i honestly like my race and dislike it at the same time, but let’s admit it, no race is perfect! and no, i am not saying that i want to be reborn with a different one, i think i’m fine with the way i am right now.
all races have negative attitudes/sides to their way of living or even personalities.
maybe that’s one of the factors that makes various races/nationalities fair and different from each other at the same time as well.
okay, so back to what i was saying… some people there seemed to show an interest on one certain thing.
it’s annoying.
food.
i mean, people kept on peaking and stuff like that
some friends even took a lot of food for them to take home
my tita’s family was quite shocked to find out that well, their food disappeared instantly.
it’s like they just went there and left.
LOL i know this is mean, this is wrong but i just feel annoyed about what happened.
they knew there’s going to be a simple celebration in there and then there they are! after that, it seemed like they never been there!
okay i am quite sure i am having grammatical errors now.
anyway let’s forget about that first, so there i kind’a felt like i wanna smash their houses with a huge hammer or something and scream
“greet my niece happy birthday at least will you?!”
pffft… kids there were nice but i think they lack discipline and guidance from their parents.
it’s crap.
although those kids seemed nice, i still think they needed a better guidance! REALLY
but honestly, their laughs and happy faces made me glad.
i just don’t like the fact that they value money more than food.
LOL some people are like that, rather give me money than food.
people who beg, they beg for money right? only quite a few ask for food.
as for what i have mentioned earlier, people around their neighborhood knew my tita won’t be giving money and since it’s a b-day celebration all they can get there is naturally, food. so it’s a different case.
you know we have this game here in the Philippines where in we hang a palayok, (oops i forgot what it is called in english!!!!) then inside will be lots of candies and coins.
participants will then be blindfolded and they will have to turn 3 or more times and try to hit the palayok.
so when the palayok finally broke, coins and candies were scattered on the floor. and then, there i saw that the kids aimed for the money more than those sweet stuff.
it’s disappointing.
yet i must accept the fact that that’s the way they are and i can’t do anything about it.
i live away from them, i don’t even know them.
okay let’s talk about other things!!
i am currently in love with this anime series: Kuroshitsuji
or in English: Black Butler
the black butler’s name is Sebastian and his master’s name is Ciel.
LOOOL ENGLISH NAMES!!! i only know one Japanese name in there so far: Tanaka-san. the mini-grandpa XD
okay… so this anime has a gothic theme! i love the clothes!!!
asagsfgfa!! the clothes are definitely gorgeous. and Sebastian! i wanna have a butler like him. he’s so cool and hot and nice and talented and fast and gorgeous and *breathes*
XD but i have another favorite character.
it’s the weird-but-funny-red-headed-gayish-voiced-by-Fukuyama-Jun-guy-with-lovely-greenish-eyes-and-razor-like-teeth-red-framed-eyeglasses-wearing-insane-gay—- i mean guy: Grell Sutcliff
[LOL i am not good with this stuff. must improve]
gosh i love him.
he’s insane yet he’s so cute.
LOL he’s gay and i like him XD i love the voice. Fukuyama-san is the voice actor for Lelouch (Code Geass), xxxHolic’s protagonist: Watanuki, Special A’s Takishima Kei and Yayaoi from Loveless.
weeee~ he’s really good. no wonder Kim-sama loves him so much
he’s cute too!!
and i wanna quote a line from him, GRELL-SAN TO SEBASTIAN:
“I WANNA HAVE YOUR BABIES”
XD hahahaha! i even recorded that part.
and Sebastian’s reply????
“PLEASE STOP. IT’S DISGUSTING” (やめてください。きもちわるい。)
hmm im on my 7th episodes. 24 all in all.
so today… i’ll be doing a marathon on this series.
I ORIGINALLY PLANNED to do a marathon for the NARUTO series but my brother discouraged me saying that i won’t be able to finish it by next week. LOL
and so i changed plans. i’ll just finish this one and finish the others that i left a few months ago.
coughHigurashinonakukoroniKaicough!cough!coughSuzumiyaHaruhinoYuuutsucough!cough!UtaKatacoughcought!!
and many more…
so there you go!! a long mixed up entry from meh~
see you soon!!
*626
good morning. today i’m going to go to school just so i could check my grades in histciv.
i was supposed to be get up at around 5:30 but it was raining, and it felt so nice sleeping when it’s cold, right? so i decided to get up at around 6:20 instead. but then i was still sleepy so after trying to get up (but failing) i set the alarm on at 7:00 and went down. i slept on the sofa.
so i had weird dreams. i don’t know whether i had it when i was upstairs during my “second” sleep of during the last one.
anyway i can no longer remember the order.
but i dreamed of a chubby cute little Japanese boy.
LOL i was with Kim and we were sitting in front of Iscala’s house
(the house beside ours) and then i saw the kid pass by.
well, i was charmed by his cuteness i decided to follow him.
he was so little… around 3 feet.
and then i talked to him.
i said things like: “konnichiwa!” “watashi to hanashimasu ka?”
which i think is wrong XD anyway the kid just walked faster and i still followed him.
and then he stopped and we talked. it seemed like he’s from a tourist group from somewhere. and he’s roaming the place before he goes back to their uhm… meeting place?
i told him that if ever he’ll need some place don’t hesitate to ask us since i have a friend who knows Japanese really well, and then i pointed out Kim.
after that he walked away and returned to Kim and narrated what happened.
-the end-
another dream is, i was at my old school.
and there were kids in there. it made me miss my old school.
damn it! as#$%d#@&!!
and then i went to so many place (inside our building)
the second building where i had my kindergarten years. LOL
well that’s where i spent most of my childhood years.
after 2 years in kinder, i spent 5 years in elementary level there as well.
i have my grade 1 classes at the first building.
anyway— i decided to go to the comfort room.
and wtf, in my dream it looked exactly the way it did.
(the second bldg. is now closed btw)
and then a little girl went in, it seemed like Jhuna’s (my brother’s girlfriend) little sister.
but i am positive that Jhuna doesn’t have one (IRL)
and then my brother was behind her. i think he accompanied her or something, then i went out.
i went outside the school and met a familiar face.
a kid who used to bug me A LOT when i was in 4th year. he used to ask me for drawings almost every single day!! XD
anyway i saw him wearing a blue jogging pants and i talked to him and stuff.
then i went back inside the school and saw my 4th year adviser’s face through the clinic door’s glass and then i decided to go in.
i can’t remember what happened next after they greeted me.
oh yeah there was also this part where in i went to school wearing shorts and shirt only. LOL and there was a parade of some sort going on. i can’t remember much about this one.
and and and the most lovely yet sad dream i had…
well this one’s weird, i won’t talk about it in detail XD
i went inside this dark room with a pond[?]/well[?]/pool[?]/aquarium[?] in the middle. it was really weird. since the moment i got in i saw a huge mirror like thing (like an aquarium)
and inside it i turtles and fishes swimming. then from somewhere up there, someone was tossing something XD
and then the turtles and fishes seemed to eat them all.
as i looked into the glass i saw them falling asleep one by one until all their eyes were crossed out. LITERALLY.
as in x_x (and i think they’re already asleep)
then i went up, there was a guy in the middle of that aquarium/pool thing and he was smiling at me.
i heard something about having to put the turtles and fishes to sleep.
and what he did was the easiest way to do it.
i saw three picture frames posted on the wall.
then i asked him, if he’s guy on the first frame or the second frame.
the guy on the first frame is certainly… Hayami Mokomichi (guuu~ Gokusen 2 XD <3 he's so tall… and he's not pale yet he's really hot- for me, that is)
and the guy on the second friend… hmm he looked like Yufune (from Rookies)
and then after i asked him, he smiled at me (again) and said that he's the guy on the first one. @#asfdgsd$%&!!!
and then i can't remember what happened next.
a single bed appeared and the pool was no longer there.
hahahahaha!! 8D adek sobra
i dreamed that he was hugging me 8DDDDDDD
LOOOOL THAT WAS REALLY FUNNY but when you dream about being hugged or hugging someone it feels real right?
so there. and then i ran down my hands on his side T_T
he was so sexy in my dream and uhh~ he was wearing a sexy black polo…. and then after hugging and such lol he gave me a cellphone and said to listen to a certain tune as he leave.
of course i felt sad (in my dream) LMAO
then he pressed the button and a sad tune played. he got up and then he left the room. LOL
i got up as well and went down. XD
even if it was just a dream, hahahaha!! the hugging-someone-so-sexy-feeling felt so real
i’d love to have more dreams like that. when you’re being hugged by someone you like, it gives you the feeling of security and such.
it feels so comfortable. well it depends 8P
OKAY I JUST NOTICED THAT I SPENT ALMOST 30 MINUTES just typing this entry. LOL of course i was trying to remember the dreams i had since i have quite a number.
ohhh yeah, i dreamed of the person i like yesterday. or was it 2 days ago?
there was a semi-hug in that dream and it felt real as well… XD
i should stop having those kinds of dreams. tsk tsk!
the night 2 days ago was terrible.
i spent the last minutes of being awake crying.
i was able to sleep, probably because my eyes felt so heavy already.
i got into a fight with my brother.
all because of a small thing. pffft! he’s just being too bossy.
it’s not good, okay? he slowly loses his respect for the people around the house. wtf is that attitude?!
and not to mention, a few minutes before that quarrel i had a misunderstanding with my mom as i have posted in my previous entry.
random: my coffee tastes wrong. LOL but i kind’a like the taste
okay… today’s a rainy day!! when i get home later i’ll probably spend more time drawing. LOOOOOL
i’ll bring my Mythology book today so i could read something while on the jeepney.
i bet, baha na naman sa Baclaran. I don’t really have any choice if i wanna get home faster. oh well-
time to take a bath!!
good morning fellas! have a nice rainy day~
*EDIT* i just remembered a very weird dream i also had this morning
XD there was this semi-chubby boy. not too chubby.
and then hmmm it seemed like i was in a relationship with him.
well, to be honest… he’s kind’a cute but i don’t think i know him.
i am not sure if i have seen him IRL… but he was nice to me in my dream… hahahaha! what a really weird dream.
and no, i am single even IRL. i just had one during my 4th year in highschool and it didn’t turn out well. it even feels like i didn’t had a boyfriend once. so i kind’a consider myself as NBSB… know what that mean? *sigh* i don’t really care though. i’m not really into those things… however- i think it feels really nice when you know someone loves you the way you love that person and you’re in a mutual understanding XDDDD
*626
Something really annoying happened today.
I can’t understand my parents. Why?
I am trying my best to understand the situation. I know that everything’s not easy and they’re working their asses off so hard just to give us the good life they could provide us… And I appreciate that. REALLY.
However it seems like my mom can’t even understand that.
She wanted me to buy a new desktop computer. Well it was me who initiated the idea, simply because I accidentally killed our old computer.
But I managed to… well, resurrect it. LOL
When i reformatted the computer last 4 days ago, I wasn’t able to find the needed drivers for the pc and there were still a lot of programs missing.
But I managed to make the pc working.
So I told my mom that there’s no need to buy a new one as soon as now.
We can postpone it since madaming gastos for this month and the coming months.
Pero she still insisted, parang naiinis pa siya. She could atleast say “thank you” for trying to understand the financial situation of the family right?
But she didn’t. Nainis pa siya sa akin.
I was so annoyed as well. She can’t understand me.
And she was complaining about the updates she wanted from us every now and then. Ang hirap kasi minsan online ka na nga sa kanya siya pa yung ayaw makipag-usap.
Feeling ko din parang di na niya ako kilala. Madami nang nangyayari sakin, madami na akong sakit na pinagdaraanan pero di niya alam yon. Miski yung small successes ko sa school. Yung mga bagay na kinatutuwa ko, mga bagay na nagagawa ko.
Bilang anak na nalayo sa magulang mula pagkabata masakit yon.
Pero naiintindihan ko pa din naman na nahihirapan siya, at malamang mas nahihirapan pa siya kung tutuusin. Pero sana maisip din niya yung nararamdaman ko kasi ako naman iniisip ko yung kanya. Mahal ko siya eh.
Alam ko na si daddy yung nagpapa-aral sakin, siya yung nagpoprovide ng allowance ko at magbibigay na naman siya ng pera para sa computer. Hindi naman ganon kakapal yung mukha po parang tanggapin kagad yun! May hiya pa din naman ako eh…
Palagi nilang iniisip at sinisikap na ibigay yung pangangailangan namin.
Mga pangangailangan… na materyal.
Pero yung kailangan kong pangunawa hindi nila mabigay.
It’s hard. And it’s painful. Feeling ko di nga nila ako kilala eh.
Sinasabi niya samin yung mga paghihirap niya doon, na ganito na ganyan at tingin niya ba na despite the fact na alam ko lahat ng yon magiging madali pa din para sakin ang gumastos ng pera para sa computer na pede namang ipagpaliban muna? At pagkatapos ano? Makakatanggap na naman ako ng sumbat? Masakit kasi talaga. Sobra.
Palaging ganon. Di ko na alam kung ano pang klaseng anak ang dapat maging ako para matuwa at hindi na sila mainis sa akin at makulitan.
Potek ang emo ng entry na to. Masama lang talaga yung loob ko eh.
Sobrang sama pakiramdam ko gusto ko na magbasag ng gamit sa bahay.
LOL Wala namang masyadong mababasag dito eh. Hahahaha!
Hay nababanas ako. Sa nanay ko sa sarili ko sa buhay ko sa araw na to at sa nangyayari ngayon.
Buti may blog. At buti andyan si Yushi.
May kausap ako kahit paano. Kahit thru typing lang kausap ko si Yushi.
At least alam ko binabasa niya yung mga pinagdadadrama ko sa kanya sa YM.
Kahit na nasa Japan siya she’s still there, willing to listen (well… read) to my rants and other whatnots. Buti pa siya kesa kay Len na ilang blocks away lang mula sa bahay namin, na bestfriend ko at classmate since Kinder na tipong pakiramdam ko magiging cassette recorder lang na may sariling FM na tumutugtog.
LOL recorder na may sariling tugtog. Oo, ganon nga. Nakuha niyo ba?
Ganon kasi pakiramdam ko pagka nagoopen ako sa kanya ng mga problema at kung ano-ano ko eh. Nung nagkukwento ako tungkol sa crush ko sa school parang di naman siya nakikinig, masakit yun for me kasi kaibigan ko siya eh pero more than anything naiirita ako… Hay buhay!
Hay… Super weird ng feeling ko. I guess I need a rest… Let’s call it a night shall we? Probably I’ll talk to Yushi for quite some time more then I’ll go to bed.
And as I have said in one of my plurks this night:
Let’s look on the brighter side of life, shall we?
Yehey nakuha ko yung audio&video drivers ng good old buddy ko!
Nakakapagpatugtog na ako ulit~ : )
Thank you God. Goodnight sa lahat.
*636-730
isa itong entry na to sa mga pinakamahabang blog post ko.
yun lang! okay start na:
sa totoo lang naiinis ako ngayon.
at dahil sa naiinis ako magbablog ako.
at dahil sa naiinis din ako magtatagalog ako para dere-derecho.
syempre may onting english para di naman mahirap sobra.
kasi una sa lahat, dapat magrereview ako para sa kaspil2 at japala3 final exams ko bukas. kaya lang tinamad ako.
kaya naan naglaro ako ng gunbound.
amp, hindi na ako marunong. pero medyo enjoy pa din nakakachallenge eh.
so ayun wala akong nagawa. hanggang ngayon.
magdadalawang oras na nga eh.
tapos nag facebook ako, sa totoo lang medyo tinatamad na din ako medyo.
ang lame eh. parang ang weird nung feeling ko.
parang wala naman akong masyadong magawa doon recently.
tapos nabadtrip ako dun sa nakita kong
WALANG KAKWENTA-KWENTANG QUIZ
tipong tungkol sa kaklase ng kapatid ko, si boki.
kasi sa totoo lang palagi yung nilalait sa school.
they always make fun of him.
syempre nakakalungkot kasi tao din naman yon, parang mula’t sapul atang naging highschool yun palagi na siyang iniinis.
tapos hanggang sa facebook pinagtitripan pa din nila yung tao.
yung quiz ay tungkol sa isang term na binuo nila. “bokista”
at yung mga tanong, walang kwenta.
hindi maganda. nakakapanglait ng tao at nakakababa ng dignidad.
kung sa school ginaganun na nila siya pati ba naman sa facebook.
sinasabi nila unggoy daw siya at kung ano-ano pa, tingin ko lang mas matuturin pa silang unggoy kesa kay boki. dahil sa mga paguugali nila.
mabuti sana kung matalino sila at may silbi sa society pero wala eh.
pare-parehas pa din kaming mga palamunin at wala pang kayang gawin sa buhay bukod sa magwaldas ng pera pang tuition. maswerte sila at nakakapagaral sila pero ano ginagawa nila? sinasayang lang nila ang pera ng mga magulang nila dahil hindi naman pagaaral ang inaatupag nila sa paaralan.
kung hindi ang manakit at manglait ng kapwa.
matino ba yung ganon? yung kapatid ko, isa pa yan
matagal ko na yang sinasabihan na tigilan na yung tao kasi kaibigan niya si boki. magkaibigan sila since what? kinder?
tapos gaganunin lang niya? pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa din sya tumutigil.
nabubwiset talaga ako. siguro dapat di ako apektado kasi di ko naman kaano-ano si boki. pero naiirita lang ako kasi yung updates nitong mga to, parang tuwang tuwa pa sa walang kwentang quiz na yon.
mabuti sana kung walang nasasagasaang tao eh.
tapos yung mga mismong kaklase’t kaibigan pa ni boki ang mismong nagtetake nung quiz.
WTF?! mga kaibigan ba kayo talaga?
pinagtutulungan niyo yung tao.
inaamin ko nakakabwiset din si boki. paano di niya kayang ipagtanggol ang sarili niya. kalalakeng tao di makayang pagsabihan yung mga tukmol na yon.
ang laki-laki pa niya ha! mas matangkad pa sa akin.
hay nako. ayan medyo gumaan na din yung pakiramdam ko. kahit paano nalabas ko yung pagurat ko sa mga taong walang kwenta sa facebook.
gaya ng message ko para sa kanila:
copy-pasted:
before you make fun of other people, please consider looking at yourselves first. baka mas maituturin pa kayong unggoy dahil sa mga ugali nyo. bato-bato sa langit, tamaan guilty.
ayan, mamaya-maya siguro magaaral na din ako.
im just waiting for our literature flash fiction poll to be posted.
dinner muna~
*626-730
Good morning
It’s been a while since I last had a finals week packed with exams.
Blaaah~ 1st term last year? (Frosh year)
Anyway… I’ll be having, around four exams this term.
KASPIL2 and JAPALA3 tomorrow…
INTOECO on Tuesday, and my last quiz on HISTCIV on Thursday.
I haven’t reviewed yet. And I think I really have to do so later when I get home from school. I think INTOECO will end earlier today, since-
my professor would just help us sort out what grade will we need in our final exam in order to pass her course. I don’t want to repeat economics. Seriously.
But if I have to, I would like to have her as my professor again.
And if ever that happens… I’ll really listen and study na.
Anyway I had this weird dream. A really weird one.
It’s about my Literature class, and the flash fiction we submitted last 25th.
Honestly… I think that my flash fiction is not so good. Not even good. I rushed it and I feel like I betrayed my own language.
I wrote it in Tagalog. But I think there were still some grammatical mistakes.
*sigh* I suck eh? But I did worked on the idea of the story.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the theme of my flash fiction for a few days before Tuesday came. I ended up having 2, and I regret not passing the other one instead. So there.
*it’s the story of LOLA PACITA and her own version of WONDERLAND*
I mean my own version of WONDERLAND for LOLA PACITA.
I was even wondering which name would be better, Pacita or Conchita?
Then my cousin said, “Pacita”
XD Lol that story’s weird and I was being mean when I included brown aliens in my story. Brown aliens with a mirror and a bag walking around : ) )
Brown aliens eating chicken adobo, pork sinigang and grilled bangus XD
Talking in an alien way. Dressed up in an alien way. Well- not for me but for Lola Pacita :3
But still… what I submitted was the story of a guy, Hana, and their glasses of Iced Tea. (+the ice cubes inside their glasses)
Ice Ice Ice… 
- – - – - – - – - – -
If my story won’t get in to Sir’s top 5 [?] it’s okay since I already knew that it was not that good… orz
And… I am now happy no matter what will the outcome be.
The fact that……*beeeeep*………..is enough to make me smile.
あの人はやさしいです。
Okay…. I’m off to prepare for another day. God bless everyone.
*626-730
今ね、この思いはとめなければなりません。
あの人は私の先生ですからーそして、私は学生だけです。
でも・・・先生のことが本当に好きかもしれない。
あのね・・・
この思いはーもう分からない。
自分も分からない。
なにも分からない。
これは本当ですよ
本当。。。
*626-730
i watched him in silence…
as i turned my back and saw him walking…
without uttering a single word, i just watched his back slowly fade away.
as the distance between the two of us continuously expanded; i stood still.
there- just behind the person walking
with a smile on my face; i only stood and watched him in silence.
—-
i’ll rewrite this one… it sounds “sabaw” kasi…
: )
*626-730
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